The day my film scans arrive back is like magic.Â When we wait for weeks or months, the memories of longÂ weekends and summer nights begins to fade, but in handling the prints, I have those feelings back in tangible way – the good, the bad, and the bittersweet.Â Every moment is replayed in emulsion with the soft textureÂ of film and I remember vividly how I felt when I made each image.
I have been absent from the personal blog for a few months. When I write these posts I write from the heart, and sometimes it can be difficultÂ to touch upon whatÂ I feel and what I want to say about it. Even now, with so many photos I want to share, the clarity of phrasing isn’t quite clear,Â other than to say I am thankful. I am thankful for my beautiful home, my capable body, and most of all, my family. When things are good, family celebrates in our joys, and when things are bad, they are the people who check in every. damn. day. Not out of obligation, not becauseÂ they’re sadÂ we’re sad orÂ happyÂ we’re happy, but because they feel it 100% – pain for pain, joy for joy.
I have people like this in my life – family I am related to, and people whose lives have become intertwined with mine in the unlikeliest of circumstances. I am grateful for both. Life is built experiencing the feelings of others in whatever way we can. I am showing up for thatÂ – pain for pain, joy for joy.
Film scans above ^^ from summer events with friends and family around Fourth of July.